March Madness.

It's still cold out. To give you an idea of its impact, I'm back to wearing thermals under the sweats. Though I'm not listening to it, Rollins' "Disconnect" pretty much sums up how I feel about my job and many of the people I have to deal with there. I mostly interact with many good and decent people who are friendly and courteous but there are a few bad apples that are just spoiling it for me. Just a bunch of passive-aggressive, spineless individuals who make me feel entitled to my sick days.

I'm sore and stiff from my workouts this past weekend and probably also from the way I'm sleeping. I've endured an immeasurable level of stress in the past 14 months. It wasn't all bad -- in fact most of it was good -- but it was a lot of work and I suppressed a lot of anger and unfortunately I am not where I want to be 8 hours a day and it's getting to me.

Now that I am a homeowner, every day will have its challenges and I'm mentally preparing for that. I feel like I cannot tell too many people at work or don't want them to know mostly because I don't people above me to use it against me. I wouldn't put it past them to do it. I wouldn't put it past anyone.

There are stressors out of the office, of course, and I handle each one differently. Some people just want to help with their suggestions and that's fine; other people have trouble expressing their own emotions and feelings and cannot handle it when any genuinely emotive act is displayed. Then there are those who just bottle it all up until they end up doing and saying things they regret. The worst are those who are in major denial. A lot of people are inspiring me in the sense that they are showing me EXACTLY how I do not want to be. I'm still at that pivotal point in my life where I can change or fall in to bad habits or cycles, but I think I can get a grip on myself most of the time.

I did ride on Friday and I'll always remember it as the day where I was up at 2:30 in the morning due to intense contemplation and rage. I slept for 15 minutes on the train coming in, a rarity. Still, I made it to work on time.

There were more people on the highway today -- I think they are making the effort now b/c the sun is out in the morning. I wd40'd my chain today and it certainly made a difference.

The crossing at Albany Street almost had a death b/c it's not obvious when the northbound traffic stops. A woman was nearly killed there today. Also on a bike was a black woman in a fur coat with a mustache. Oh wait, it wasn't a woman. A pimp on a bike? Is that what I saw?

Thank you for reading.

Playlist:
Chris Cornell - "Time" "Ground Zero"
Lo-Fidelity All-Stars - "Deep Ellum...Hold On"
Airbourne - "Born To Kill" "No Way But the Hard Way" "Bottom of the Well"