I often feel like a fraud.
I feel that way because of the way I spend many of my waking hours, contributing to something I don't fully believe in all in the name of a paycheck.
I am positive a lot of people feel that way, some are fortunate to feel that way -- it is all in the eye of the beholder.
My outside interests (primarily music & fitness, and now my house) are what I devote my energies to because I cannot feign interest and the results speak volumes. Or they remain silent. And that's all.
I can feel myself going through the motions lots of the time and it's repulsive. I even think sometimes of how I let people control me and run through me and I'm even more disgusted.
Next week is a full week of this and I have a week membership at a local gym I will hit a bag during my lunch breaks.
I was relieved to find Church Street has been paved nice & smoothly so the return rides will be good. I don't know how much more of that I could've withstood.
Thank you for reading.
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